Charles needed little encouragement to talk about his life and chose to start at the time of his own birth and take us on a narrative journey finishing at the present day. If I am honest, my first thought was that what he has going to talk about for the first 30 minutes would be irrelevant and a bit pointless. In my mind I willed him to get to the ‘good bit’ about his operation and recent experiences of cancer.
In this art piece I have tried to show how Charles told us his story like a journey he had been on and to illustrate his emotions and important people in his life. Charles started talking about the effects of his mother’s early death, passing away before his 10th birthday and his consequent bad experiences with a step-mother who he would ‘rather not talk about’. To illustrate this I have pieced together a black part of the path of his life, followed by a transition into white. I chose this because I noticed Charles’s mood lifted as he began talking about his wife, getting married and having his children. Charles spoke a lot about his wife; his love for her over their 50 years together came across to me very strongly, so I chose to represent her as reds and pinks.
Charles has been told that he is in the terminal stages of cancer and as he waits for his appointment with the consultant for more news, he refers to this period in his life as one of ‘reminiscence’. This is why I chose to portray a path representing the past behind his feet and his future as a cascade of yellow and red, ahead of him.
The centre piece of this portrait is Charles’s feet. When I entered the living room where Charles was sitting I was aware he was wearing one slipper and one, shiny, polished shoe. I rationalized in my head that his ankle and foot on one leg were indeed too swollen to fit into another shoe but could not understand why he didn’t simply wear a pair of slippers. Upon reflection of my sixty-minute insight into Charles’s life, I feel this can be explained by the fact that through all of the adversity he has faced in his life he has remained a man of pride, dignity and respect. I think that the slipper and the shoe are a symbol of Charles’s attitude to life, never to give up. He asked my colleague and I not to think of him as a ‘brave man’ and rather to take something away that could help us and our future careers as doctors.
During tutorials before we began GP placements a colleague asked the tutor what she should do if a patient she was with started crying and she felt she was going to cry too. I remember thinking that I was not worried about that and assured myself I would be able to control the situation through ‘detachment’. However as Charles started to talk about his cancer, and the mood in the room changed. Almost without warning he began crying and I did not feel the sense of detachment that I had so hopefully thought I would. In the art work I have shown this part of the interview by a transition of blues running down the board. I have included this because I felt that it was an important moment for Charles and for me, as I think we both thought that we were strong enough, in very different ways, not to break down.
On reflection, I am embarrassed by my initial thoughts about Charles telling his whole story – since I can now see now, the early experiences of our lives and the people we are, shape the person we become. For example, Charles told me that his early experience of losing his mother has helped relieve some of the anxiety about his own prognosis.
In my future clinical years I anticipate that I will meet people who, at the first upset in their lives will crumble and lose themselves. Equally, I will encounter those, like Charles, who refuse to be beaten and who continue to live their lives with sheer determination and courage, even when faced with the worst prognosis imaginable. Whoever they are, I hope I remember to appreciate that everyone is unique since we all grow out of different experiences.
Thinking about other patients I have seen both in the surgery and at home, and indeed about my own life, Charles’s philosophical attitude towards the wall of adversity he has faced and continues to face, was truly inspirational. By making this montage, I hope to show the way in which Charles has walked through his 77 years of life, and how he is now at a point to look back and reflect at the journey he has taken.
Dear Sarah I was very touched by your piece; the art itself is full of poignancy and I was moved too by your words. I am glad that you and Charles were able to ‘lose control’ and cry together. It sounds as if a lot of healing happened for both of you. Thank you for sharing your experience. Tessa
This is such an amazing piece. I saw the exhibition at the Grant Bradley Gallery in Bristol and thought all the works were fantastic. I seem to remember that this was one of the first pieces of work that I saw in the gallery. I was touched by its colour, meaning and the story behind it.
I find this piece very touching as it clearly highlights Charles’ transition from a dark point in his life to a part of his life that is much brighter and happy. Despite becoming unwell during this transition, shown by the one slipper and one shoe, Charles was still happier at this point of his life than the beginning. It represents the idea that your health status does not determine your happiness. It is a very inspirational piece.
I really like the piece because as a medical student it speaks volumes about the professional life versus personal life dichotomy that physicians face on a day-to-day.
Could also be symbolic of the variety and diversity of patients medical-care professionals see and interact during their career. Diversity could be in the differences in lifestyles or even in their race, sexuality and backgrounds. In both doctors and patients, there are no two of the same.
This piece artfully combines the medium of collage with thought-provoking words about how the medical student’s preconceptions about the patient were proven wrong. I really like how the physical aspects of the patient (the way that he is wearing two different shoes) has been depicted to convey a message about his own character and bravery in times of hard-ship. The medium of collage I feel also reflects the nature of the story being told, as many different pieces have been combined to create a full picture.
Upon first glance, I was immediately drawn to this piece and I quickly came up with my own conclusions on what it could be based on. I thought it was a metaphor for the “blended’ personal and professional lives of clinicians and the struggle of separating the two things. When I read the written piece I was dumfounded as I had just proven the point of artwork.
Similarly to Sarah, I had made a preconception about this artwork based off of a first look. I had assumed it was a professional’s personal dilemma that was being addressed but it was actually the interpretation of a patient’s unwavering desire to strive, continue and tackle their condition.
Understanding the true intentions and inspiration of the artwork, makes the message that much more meaningful. I believe Sarah was able to beautifully execute this piece because she saw herself in Charles, allowing a deeper understanding/relationship between a professional and a patient.