I Have No Regrets
I climbed into young and youthful bones,
I crept slowly up your spine,
Twisting, turninging, becoming unnerving,
I was here to stay.
I grabbed you with unforgiving hands,
I bent you this way and that,
Squeezing your lungs, and fluttering your heart
I’m the force you couldn’t stop.
I stalked you wherever you went,
I wreaked havoc on your life
Through hard labour jobs, a life I have robbed
I have done my job
I Have No Regrets
Twenty years delivering kegs
Kept me strong, my back, arms and legs
Riding my bike gets me out and about
Wouldn’t change it for the world, without a doubt.
You can find me on the weekend down at the pub
Or at Ashton Gate supporting my club
A stroll in the park, or a cruise with my wife
There’s no denying I’ve had a great life.
You thought you could beat me, you thought you could win,
But you never could get under my skin,
You have made it tricky, and I won’t forget,
But I am happy, and I have no regrets.
The thing that struck me most about this experience was the patient’s positivity, resilience and attitude towards his life. A few times throughout the call he told us ‘I have no regrets’ and that he was very happy with his life. For me this was unexpected as I did not envision that someone who we may view as having a difficult life, would have a more positive outlook on life than a lot of other people.
I wrote a poem as I felt it was the best way I could demonstrate – how others may see him versus how he wants people to see him and also, how he sees himself.
When talking about how others may see him, I have personified his spinal condition and started most lines with ‘I’. This puts all the focus on the scoliosis and doesn’t give us a chance to hear his story. Beneath this is a poem from his point of view. I didn’t want to mention his condition in this part of the poem as he doesn’t let it define him so I focused on some of the positive things he talked about with us. Structurally, I have put the first half in a lighter colour and the second in bold, as well as having the title over the second half. This was done to make the second section stand out and be what the reader focuses on. I also used rhyme through the second half to make it lighter and more engaging in an attempt to make sure this is the part that is remembered and that people will view the patient how he views himself.
Through this clinical encounter and the making of this piece, I have learnt that many people, do not let health conditions define them. The patient enjoyed many of the things I do and just had to adapt to make sure he could still do them. He started using a mobility scooter as he struggled with walking, especially up hills, and said it was ‘a God-send’ despite initially being worried about the stigma surrounding it. He had always enjoyed being active, particularly cycling, and now uses an electric bike which means he can get out and enjoy himself.
I actually found the second half of the poem easiest to write as this was what he wanted us to see and through his positivity, it made it easier for me to see his condition in a positive light. Overall, I have enjoyed the process of this creative piece and this is a consultation that I will remember.
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This personified poem highlights the difficulties caused by a difficult spinal condition. The patient’s unwavering optimism and fortitude are cleverly portrayed in the poem’s second part, which also highlights their resolve to live a full life and not let their illness define them. The description highlights the patient’s amazing attitude and capacity for adaptation, sending a strong message of resilience and the capacity to find joy in the midst of hardship. The poem and description offer a moving illustration of the resiliency of the human spirit and an encouraging reminder of the significant influence that optimism can have on one’s life.
I think using the two parts of the poem to portray how others may see the patient and how he sees himself is a very effective method of highlighting the differing opinions. Learning about how different people may view and define their health and speaking to a patient on GP placement myself, I have found that them being able to do activities that they enjoy is a key factor in them feeling healthier/happier overall, despite poor physical health. This was really highlighted in the second half of the poem: instead of having a ‘robbed’ life as the first half would make us think, the patient has been able to do things like cycling, going on walks with his wife and socialising at the pub. This contrast gives me a sense that the patient is empowered, instead of being controlled in all the ways mentioned in the first half of the poem. It is really important to challenge other people’s perceptions that patients are completely at the mercy of their condition and show that they do have control and can still have a great life with ‘no regrets’.