Feelings inside, disarray, disjointed. Am I taking this the right way?
Peace-severed.
Definitely not taking this well, not right.
What was that thought?
Ashamed… is this what I’ve become. Jesus.
They definitely don’t behave like this in films. Films? This is real, wake up. This
should NOT need million-dollar scripting.
From the heart. Right.

Right, strong – get face composed… get composed man, sort it out.
Strong, be strong.
Better. Is it? I said strong not in denial.
Mild shame at own thoughts, why isn’t this at the fore?

Jesus, this is my mother. MY, MOTHER.
Jesus – good point, maybe its time to rediscover faith. Ridiculous, mis-guided action of the bereft worldwide. Although, can’t pray if you don’t believe. Helpless then.
Doesn’t matter, she believes that’s what counts.
Worried but not worried enough!!! What can I do?

Right, resilient mode. Show support, be… strong. For her? For Dad? Altruism. No.
selfish? For me then? Maybe. Who knows. Confused. BAD PERSON.
Bad person? No.
Maybe, maybe just lost, out of depth.
Trying to pretend its not there.

I wonder if I self-analyse too much…