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The Veil

Lara Gibbs

During my work experience on a Paediatric Cardiology ward, I observed a case which upset me a great deal.

The patient was a baby girl, a few months old. She had an un-treatable heart condition. She was expected until she was a toddler, or a little older, no-one was sure. The only real certainty was that she would die very early, before her mum and dad could see her grow up.

The piece of work relates to the baby’s mother: my ideas of what must have been going through her mind. At the time it struck me that the only people who genuinely feel what it is to like to watch your child dying are people who have had this tragic experience. To me, it is not something that can be realistically empathized with because it is so awful. In a situation like this, sympathy and pity come much more easily.

The Image

The veil over the page is partly to do with the privacy that any patient has in their emotions about their situation. It is also partly to do with the fact that only people who have experienced situations like this, know what is under the veil and – what feelings are to come and remain.

The rose is the symbol of perfection because to a mother, her child is perfect. Only some of the petals are coloured to show the uncertainty of the next few years for the family. One of the petals is beginning to break away from the others and fall off, because ultimately, the little girl is dying.

The stalk of the rose, with its thorns – her illness is – is mainly hidden. This is because she looked so well when I saw her that it seemed so unreal that she was so ill. It could not be foreseen what agonies her family, particularly her mother, (who stuck in my mind) would have to go through in the not too far away future.

For me, the process of creativity has made me think in a completely different ways to how I would ordinarily have tried to interpret an experience like this. It has opened up the possibility that I can come back to this form of expressing anything, including Medicine.

Whole Person Care – Year One